Comfort Zone

As of late I have stopped going to daily mass, stopped riding my bicycle and stopped writing. I just don’t feel like it and can’t seem to get motivated.

Have I allowed myself to slip into a state of spiritual and physical lethargy?

Am I just on a plateau taking a breather and gathering my strength to go on?

Perhaps I need to get out of my comfort zone?

I live in a house that has a water heater for every sink…do I need to make a trip back to the land of cold showers and people dressed in native garb?

I have been asked in a very indirect, roundabout way “if I would like to go to Guatemala again”.

My policy is not to volunteer for anything…but not to say no to anyone’s request for help.

I am tormented with all this emotional waxing and waning about what to do.

Asking me “if I want to” is different than “asking me to”. The “if I want to” does not fit my policy. It seems I do not want to do anything.

I just want to lie here in my comfort zone, living in the lap of lethargy, resting on my spiritual plateau.

But I know …

Too much resting and I will get out of shape. I will not be able to climb any higher. It will weaken me so I will not be able to fight the good fight or finish the race.

Dear Lord, please give me the strength to get back in the fight.
Dear Lord, please give me the courage to finish the race.
And most of all, Lord Jesus, I pray for the wisdom to do Your will, not mine.

Amen


2/16/2008